HOW DID THIS ALL BEGIN?
A conversation with my cousin made me stop and start thinking about this feeling I have had for ages. For most of my life, I have felt undeserving of love. I spend a lot of my time on what I consider to be my faults, sabotage every good opportunity to be loved, and the worst bit, I concentrate my emotions on men who are physically and emotionally unavailable. I'm talking months and years... I'm 33 shortly hitting 34, and even though I am not marriage hungry, it would not hurt to meet God's chosen man for me and settle down, and have some amazing kids that'll keep me on my toes for hours on end.
THE CONCEPT BEHIND 30 DAYS OF ME: 30 Days of celebrating me, is the chance I am giving myself to really dig deep and look at the qualities that make me who I am. The idea of celebrating me came from a group I joined on Facebook called Thirty after Thirty. However I decided that maybe I might just blog my experience as it is quite private at close to my heart.
THE WORK I NEED TO PUT IN: Everyday, I will pick a quality that I believe I possess, and reflect on the positive impacts. When I speak of qualities, it will be anything such as a character/personality trait, physical attribute etc. These in a way are the essence of me. Without them I will not be who I am.
I am hoping that by day 30, I can come to terms with the fact that I am worthy of loving, and understand that someone can just love me for being me.
Let the journey begin....
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